will be taking back all the papers on next wed! damn worried! but I reckon that I kind of did quite well as compared to last year. at least, my physic improved yea?
I really hope that math and econs could pass. As for physic, I'm don't really have the confidence in passing; but overall at least I'll pass for physic rite? since i passed all my lecture test. Chem, not much confidence too:( this is so saddening. I shouldn't be worry about my results at all but instead I should have lots of confidence in it. this goes to show tt I still lack the skills and not fully prepared for my promos. nevertheless, I'm sure I'm able t deliver good news t everyone and proudly say tt I GET PROMOTED! I can right? I can do it right? please, let my fulfill my second wish! please!

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been hanging out everyday after sch with dear(: went t lots of places; plaza sing, the cathay, city hall, amk hub, dear's house n bugis! :D
we went t catch lots of movies- life as you know it, takers n the child's eyes! do some window shopping n went arcade n played lan! OMGGG! I'm addicted t CS again! hahah! I shall play lan again some other day!

went t his hse on thurs(21oct 10) tho! really love the scenery n the exterior design of the condo! OMGGG! love his hse ttm:D I feel as if i entered into the resort world when i saw the exterior design of the condo. as in the feeling tt the condo gave was different from those tt i went before. next, his hse! his family owns two unit on the same level. so before i went t his hse, we stay put at the other unit first, where his drum sets are there. his maid cooked nasi lemak for us:D nice! but i feel bad for not finishing the food n didn't help up with the dish-washing( cos dear said put it there!) hahah! went t his 'drum studio' and we started t view each other (childhood) pictures! LOL! his rlly cute when he's young! I'm very cute when i'm a toddler tooo! haha. his dad went out at ard 3plus, so we went t his hse n I greeted his maid. entered his room and its so damn neat n tidy at a glance! ^^ love the design n layout of his room-so cozy:D we have lots of fun tho, trying t tickle each other n the mischievious side of me surfaced again as I used his msn account n chatted with his friends!!!! HAHAHAH :P love his bed cos its rlly comfortable! (:
P.S. feel like we are newly-weds when I'm at his hse, bcos we somehow act like one too! :p

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yay~ i'm at his house suing his laptop now(: his condo looks damn niceee! tt resort world feel. love his house so much tooo! and his room! so damn cozy and neat(: don wanna leave his hse:(

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ohwell! I wish i could rlly do well for this year promo! I can do it right? yup! I CAN! :D

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what should i do? i think i'm such a failure, a sucker and whatever u all can think of. This cant go on for life man! I seriously need change the attitude of mine! wat lousy shit is this? wat stupid crap of attitude and character this is? ombloodyhell, this crappy mouth n thinking of mine should change seriously! I rlly dk wats wrong with me, but yup, a mistake surface again, after the other subsidies. just whats wrong with me? why should i always be the spoiler? why i cant i maintain the ambience as it is? whats the freaking problem with me? WHAT??? tell me wHAT!!!!
i don have the right t be unhappy or watsoever even if i feel sad or hurt, becos, i'm in the wrong. sigh. this cant continue forever man, but idk wat ican do t change for the better. i shal try my best then.

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no sch for us on friday(15OCT 10), so went city hall with hs. meet him at ard 9.30 at lc mrt station and trained t city hall. walked ard city link, and sat down t chat(: went marina square, not much ppl thr! YAY!!! haha. we shopped ard the shops looking at clothes, books, soft toys etc! after tt, we stood rooted at a spot n started huggin each other, chatting bout lots of stuff. later, Hs took out his jacket n I wore it! omg! his jacket look damn nice n fashion! (: love his jacket ttm! and I love the feeling of being in his arms, i just feel so blissful, so heaven! later at ard 12 sth we went t have our lunch. after lunch, we went t suntec city n started gg t the arcade! :D its my first time gg arcade with only a guy! we played shootin, drumming and catching of soft toys(and of cos we didn't succeed!) he kept wanting me t dance in front of him using the machine at the arcade, but i simply refused t do it, cos i felt damn ps doing it infront of him, and i suck at it too! haha! BUT! Hs is damn cool at shootin n drumming too! he looks so cool when he's doing all those stuff! lol:D saw ash n francs on our way down t level one. lol! What a coincidence! we went t shop for soccer clothes too, cos hs loves soccer:D went coffee n toast t have our tea break before gg home! n we have our jacket exchange, so tt it feel as if we are beside each other when we are at home! haha!
anyway, I simply love the feeling of being by his side, holding his hands walking round at shopping mall, even tho we are doing nth! the feelin is just so great, and i feel so blissful! being hugged by him made me fly t the sky too! omgosh! guess, tt's the power of love? making ppl go crazy! miss him so much!! <3 <3 <3

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FML! i just cant believe it tt I cant even relax even after exams! right after exams man?! what's going on now? wth! i've been wanting t watch lots of on9 dramas, variety show n movies. but bcos i know its exam periods n tt exams are impt, so i kept telling myself tt, 'nvm tracy, just endure, and and after exams you can do everything you wan. exams are impt. they determine your life. youtube, facebook all tt can wait. so yup. focus on wats impt now!' but, i didn't get what t enjoy life after exams! this suck! FML man! i nv use this F word unless i'm rlly angry! this rlly suck! how i wish i can pack my bag now, n leave this hse! but not forever of cos! i just wan my parents t know tt i have everyright t enjoy life after exams. n tt i'll still manage my time well between studies n playtime. i know, i might not do well for promo, or maybe the worst, got kick out of the sch. but still i did my best. n i wanna give myself a treat after all those hardwork tt i put in. so yup. please don deprive me from my freedom n happiness! i rlly need them t survive well!
i'm thinking if thr's any workshop tt i can send my parents t 'upgrade' on their mindset! its 21st century, they nd t rlly know wat their child needs, and how n why their child behave in this way! omg! They are great n awesome in other aspects but when it came t after exams period n studies all that, they suck! oh my holy shit! :((( i cant believe tt i'm 18 but i deprived from the life tt a 18thyr old child should lead! FML! this is rllly unfair man! i need a rest. and not just rest by slping early. i need entertainment after being kept in seclusion for almost 9mths! sigh!

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ended sch at ard 10.20am tday, so we decided t meet each other at bishan mrt station at 11am. CRAZZIES first outing on thurs(14 oct 10) we went dhoby to catch a movie 'life as you know it'! damn funny! ash brought along his gf, while I brought hs along too! we had our lunch at KFC, unfortunately, i had cramps at this stupid timing! so ended up, i didn't eat much for lunch! :( hs was at a loss, he didn't kno wat to do. but its okay, as long as he's beside me when i'm in pain or watever, its good enough alr! By holding my hands, somehow gives me the courage t move on and able t recover soon too!(: after lunch our clique went seperate ways. ash, francs n meng went pooling, ql n yvonne went t shop ard ps too, buying lots of stuff, while hs n I stayed a while longer at KFC cos i'm still in pain, after tt then we went t walk round ps n the cathay.

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oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah hey! oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah ho! haha!
PROMO IS FINALLY OVER! :D
but honestly speaking, i feel neither excited or depress. just neutral. LOLS! but i only had one wish now! one important wish tt i hope it can be fufilled! i don yearn for more, just let me promote n its fine! i think i put in much more effort than i did last year, rlly! n all the results before i take the promo are actually quite high too! so yup, please, fufilled my dreams for once! :D

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settled!!!! (((:
i shall concentrate on my studies nowww! cos promo is cominggg! in bout 3 days!
omggggg!

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