Felt so empty. I'm no longer someone that is nineteen years old who could still be alittle immature. I'm twenty, and I need to learn to handle my problems and emotions on my own. So this is the feeling of growing up, into an adult? I hate this feeling. I wanna go school, and I meant JC or Secondary where I look forward to study and have fun with my friends. Its like my second home. Currently, I feel so lost in this world, seems like there's no other place for me to seek comfort except my home. Yet no one can truly understand how I feel for this past few months. I want a friend whom I can pour all my feelings out without feeling embarrassed or whatsoever. I do have one actually, but its so difficult to start conveying my thoughts to that person too. Why is this happening to me?!?! I used to enjoy my life every single seconds and have never once hated my life before, but this is happening to me now:(  Just whats the theory behind all this? I couldn't imagine how much I have cried during this July period. Few months ago, I still have a part time job where I manage to find some fun in it. but now, i don even feel like working. Seems like my heart is dead, no mood for anything and everything. There's actually still a glimpse of hope in my life every single day when I woke up, something that I can look forward too. However, that person has his/her own life to live too, and can't be by my side every single day. I do understand that, but its heartwrenching when I'm told to get my own life. sighh, MY OWN LIFE? I guess I lost it like 1 year ago. Shouldn't have devoted my time solely to one, I should have continue living my own life at the same time too. In the end, I realised I became too clingy. sighh, wat to do now?

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